Can't accept? Don't want to accept?

I realised that my conflict with others are more serious now. I just can't accept the way they lead, they talk, can't they do it with love?

I'm not sure I'm right or wrong, but I just can't accept. I also don't know whether it's right or wrong to accept or don't. The longer I'm there, the more suffer I will be. I'm not sure about others, but it seems that it's only me. I am the problem or they are the problem?

In phycology, it's all about human's thinking. The phycologist or counsellor will help you to accept the fact and the way, but it do not solve the problem. I am a very sensitive guy, real sensitive. Today was Christmas gathering for the youth, I enjoyed at first, but then emo again. It's all about acceptation.

I can accept others failure, others opinion, others speech, but never leaders' anger. At most of the time, leaders want to get things done, but they never think SMARTly. Briefing and time limit is very important. For example, we will start our barbeque at 7 something, but never a specific time. So, the leader just came in and talk to us in a rude way(to me). As this is a gathering, and we are enjoying ourselves playing games, yet you do not tell us what time, and the game leader also not sure about your plan, why can't you solve the problem in an orderly manner? You are not SMART at all.

I pissed. I just can't accept. I wish to leave and do not want to see you, but the Lord's command is not like that... I will seek the Lord for the answer.

Lord, I feel that I can't stand this anymore, can you give me a lighter test?