Banana Phone =P

Ding-a-ling-ling-ling-ling-ling-ling-ling!

Boo-ba-doo-ba-doop!

Boo-ba-doo-ba-doop!

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring banana phone

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring banana phone

I've got this feeling, so appealing,

For us to Get together and sing. Sing!

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring banana phone

Ding dong ding dong ding dong ding donana phone

It grows in bunches, I've got my hunches,

It's the best! Beats the rest!

Cellular, Modular, Interactivodular!

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring banana phone

Boop-boo-ba-doo-ba-doop!

Ping pong ping pong ping pong ping panana phone

It's no bolagna, it aint a phony!

My cellular bananular phone!

Don't need quarters, don't need dimes,

To call a friend of mine!

Don't need computer or TV,

To have a real good time!

I'll call for pizza. I'll call my cat.

I'll call the white house, have a chat!

I'll place a call around the world, operater get me bejing-jing-jing-jing!

(Soprano Sax Solo)

Yeah!

Play that thing!

(Piano Solo)

Whooo Hooo!

Ring ring ring ring ring ring ring banana phone

Boop-boo-ba-doo-ba-doop

Yin yang yin yang yin yang ying yonana phone

It's a real live mama and papa phone,

A brother and sister and a dogaphone,

A grandpa phone and a grandma phone too! Oh Yeah!

My cellular, bananular phone!

Banana phone, ring ring ring!

(It's a phone with appeal!)

Banana phone, ring ring ring!

(Now you can have your phone and eat it too!)

Banana phone, ring ring ring!

(This song drives me, Bananas!)

Banana phone, ring ring ring!

Boo-ba-doo-ba-doop-doop-doop!

江湖

又有一句话：“一入江湖不自由”，江湖自有它的规则－人情与道义，侠骨与柔情，江湖衍生出江湖儿女们最绮丽的悲欢离合……

人在江湖，本身就是一种挥不去的千古绝唱……

Quote from http://www.guxiang.com/zhuanti/wuxia/index.htm

人在江湖 身不由己? 人在江湖逍遥游?

在江湖里，刀剑没有眼。但，即在江湖里了，当然，每个人都想要笑傲江湖。如人常说，人在江湖，身不由己。也许说出那些话的人的确经历了身不由己，但这代表每个人都必定经历吗？没有选择吗？

的确，要逃出身不由己的情况有点困难，但也不是没有可能。但我还是坚持 人在江湖逍遥游。江湖算什么？当然，表面看来 人在江湖逍遥游 比 人在江湖 身不由己 容易，但事实不是这样。

各位，今天就让你想， 让你做出选择。 同时也要你思考何谓 人在江湖逍遥游?

=)

p.s.: This is my 101th post... Haha, it's kinda fast though. Although you may not get all the 101 posts, as some of them are hidden, but hope you enjoy them. =)

Lei

Wo Hao Lei~~~

Wo Hai You Hen Duo Shu Yao Du~~~ Wu Wu Wu ='(

Just now got someone offer me leaked answer. I said okay, uncertainly. I feel that it's very wrong, so I met Yi Ying and told her about it. She shared this situation in biblical way, I now I'm going to repent.

Thanks God that I haven't got the information yet, which means I still have the chance to repent. Thanks her once more... Haha.

Yesterday, I thought about glorifying God through eating. It's a very difficult lesson for me. But today, the test came. Thanks God for giving me few Christian peers to help me and support me when I'm tempted. Now, I've done the stupidest thing, but I know somehow my God is so great that I don't need the leaked answers at all!

"...How then could I do such a wicked thing and sin against God?" Genesis 39:9

Breathing

It was a suffering weekend, or I call it "weak"-end.

Breathing, seems easy for everyone, but not to me. How many of you actually listened to yourself breathing? Or feeling the breath of your own? Or feeling the air flowing in and out of your lungs and also the feeling through trachea?

I seriously hate breathing, I hate the feeling! I hate the feeling the air passes through the trachea, I feel something there.

Is there any alternative to get oxygen? Please tell me... =(

I didn't really tell this thing to anyone, as I don't want you all to worry. But if you see this, I would like to ask for a favour, that is pray for me.

Somehow, I started to like the feeling now. As the unpleasant feeling reminded me of the mission I have on earth. There are so many things to do, and also to study, but which of them will bring significant if only my body will be around for the next day?

Breathing, might not be something to you, but it is something to me. =)

Commit Suicide

If I'm going to commit suicide, I'll never jump off the bridge!

Stupid, the stupidest way of committing suicide. Hundred of cars were stuck in the very very long jam in a very very heavy rain.

Less than 5 minutes journey home took me about 30 minutes.

Sometimes you get too tired, all you want to think is rest!

Sorry, I'm in altered state of conscious now, I don't really know what am I typing... Haha. Anyway, I hope you can understand. =)

Tomorrow is my Psych midterm, still got some stuff to study. Pray for me. =)

p/s: I wish that I can breathe easily.

她

在3月22日，我们初次见面。过后我们又在一起单独聊天。她，的确是一个非常好的女生。从一开始，我们俩根本就没有想过。起初，我们对彼此的印象没有那么得好，但我们争取了很多机会来认识对方。

她，几乎完美。大方，体贴，有爱心，聪明，诚实，单纯，及谦卑。

4月2日，也许就是这一天，我们对彼此都有了好感。相处了几个月，越陷越深。

她，也许是我人生中的第一个。我，这方面的白痴，的确在这方面一窍不通。在面对一些挫折时，情绪上都大大地受影响。但，神是我们彼此之间的桥梁。祷告，是我们的相爱方式。诚实，是我们的解决方法。

我从她的身上学了许多，并且还有很多需要学习。她，就是她。虽然她变了一些，我仍旧害怕，但她若是在应许里的那一位，我的惧怕，就会不见了。

在文化上，我们虽有差别，但爱，是何等奇妙。

我只想，能在祷告中，多多的纪念她。

Tired + BB parade

Si pek tired... Yesterday, I was so so so so tired. I am lazy to go for prayer meeting, but the love of God is so strong that it pulled me there. Have a talk with Herrick for a while then headed home for devotion. I planned to write something here as the inspiration is there, but I was so tired and I slept.

I set my alarm at 7am, but woke up at 9:22am. Took a quick bath, guide my sister to burn the CDs, then went out for BB Parade. Yes, I'm on leave now, but CLBU01 is somewhere like my home, my workplace, and also my family. I went there to oversee, then get updates around. Haha, I was asked to give a short briefing on what am I doing now in BB, and do a short publicity on the drill practice. It was quite impromptu, I walked in the room as myself, and they all laughed out loud as usual. Walao, I don't know whether should I be happy or sad... Haha.

Last time, I used to update people. But now, I get updates from the others instead. Life have changed.

Turn-over

Hahaha, thank you Ah Fang Ee for bringing me to QB for emo-talk again. Seriously, I don't really get a lot from the emo-talk, but instead I get to know her more. I was happy when I pay the parking ticket with coins instead of notes. *Klock klock klock* Haha, the sound is very fun.

For the first half of History class, I almost fall asleep. It was even funner when I pay my Nescafe with purely coins. Hahaha, just feel happy and syok about it. The History class didn't extend as we planned to, because the attendance was just 8/23. Haha.

Haha... Haha...

Then I went for the Intima Installation as one of the CF member as Sin Nee asked me to. She said that there'll be a briefing, meeting or something, mana tahu... Haha. Nvm la, ICF were the only club representative there. LOL, ICF are always supportive, hope that Intima can support us back. Hehe. PK asked me to take photo with his camera. Initially I rejected, but I don't know why still I'm holding the camera. I don't like to see people to look at me taking pictures, hmm... it's my attitude problem la.

Dr. Michael Yap gave his speech on student leaders, and guide the new leaders on the right path. He rocks though, as he is the one who stresses on integrity than abilities. Inti is blessed because of you I guess.

So, you guys thought I "Haha" for the whole day? NO!

Oh ya, I "Haha"-ed and "Ein-Kang" when I taught the upcoming drillers drill. Haha, they rocks man, I didn't expect them to improve that fast. I know the Real Captain of BB was there to lead them just now. =)

I kinda stress and emo when people asked me about the char bor. Seriously, I'm very thankful now. Not for what had happened, but thankful for the One who pointed out the imprefection and weakness of mine. I really wish to have someone to teach me as Nathan and David. Thank you Yi Ying for sharing what you've learned. It doesn't help at first, but He continued to speak with me with your sharing.

Life is a test. =)

Energy

I ate, but still I don't have energy. I slept, but I'm still weak.

I can feel the energy, but I can't access to it. It seems like all the energy headed to the heart, while the rest of the body have no energy to function.

I pressed my heart, so that I can continue to stand. I hate this to happen in front of the trainees. I know it's not because I'm back to serve, but the problems and stress inside me.

Perhaps I might meet a few new friends, High Blood Pressure and Heart attack.

我只想倒在地上，就这样安息，无忧无虑，进入世外桃源。力量，你到底在哪里？

Midnight blog

I slept, and I awaken.

I'm seriously facing a lot of stresses.

Perhaps I've never returned the 'calculator' ever since I hold it in 2007. I thought I've passed it to the younger generation in 2009, but I think I didn't actually pass it. 我的预料还是一样准确。

Still, there're nobody who can understand me. I found no one who knows my attitude, my pride and my feelings. None but Jesus. 君的意念故有所不同，但君却不认为此意念又何高。不如一国之君高，也不如万神之神高。为何就是有人不明白，说了也不明白，猜测也猜不透。

一人故不能服侍两个主。心事从从，有何酒能帮君解除忧闷呢?

君之高见，也只不过是仆人之见。

Sept 22 or Mid-Autumn Festival?

Technically, I got nothing to say for Sept 22, it sucks.

But Mid-Autumn festival this year was awsome.

Firstly, I met three person today which brings significance to me.
1. Joshua Johnson - Having lunch with him today and talked a lot. Also payed a visit to FEC office in Penang today, it is a hideout, which Joshua told me. Haha, and also met two of the other staff, Grace and [I forgot the other one =( ].
2. Jie Ying - My primary school classmate. If not wrong, I was in the same class with her in Standard One, and also Standard Six, 6B. Haha, I invited her to the gathering of 6B at the end of the year. She changed quite a lot after 5 years. Wow, she was totally a stranger to me now.
3. Jeremy Lim - At first, I teased him, then we actually proceed to a more formal conversation. He's quite a cool guy, knowledgible and also vegetable. Haha. I cared about his spiritual life, and I got a new job to do. I still want to have philosophy talk with him again BTW.

As for Mid-Autumn festival, I saw the moon. Yay, as I cant see at first, but after few attempts. Sadly, I cant get the moon back in Butterworth. My sister is having a ex-coursemates gathering, quite Lao-Juak. Haha, God provided me food, as I don't really have a dinner due to stress. Seriously, I don't even think that I can finish the food on the tables until tomorrow.

中秋节
月亮，你为什么躲避我，在我最需要你的时候，你抛我一个，在微小的月光下哀哭，以泪为茶，以孤单为月饼。为什么？

考试与幸福

我还记得在去年SPM的时候，收到了很多鼓励短讯。虽然简单，但却是很幸福。

现在我正面对着很多考试，虽然受到的是中秋节的祝福，但也很幸福。

我为了要求我的朋友帮我印文件，就传了一个短讯，也顺便加上了小小的鼓励及笑脸。结果，我收回了一个笑脸。虽然简单，但还是很幸福。

神创造我们，叫我们爱神，爱人。他教导了我们何谓爱，也爱我们。如果这世上没有神，就没有爱。如果这世上没有爱，我就不会在这里分享了。

爱，何等奇妙。 =)

Late

I don't like to be late. Technically, I will not have any good impression on that person who late.

But I can't help to be late lately. Peers, stress and so on, are the factors. Of course, I couldn't blame them at all, I should blame myself instead, for my "self-discipline".

I drive recklessly, I run like mad, ........ Sorry, my brain couldn't function well, I don't know what to say...

All I wanted to say is, I don't like to be late and I don't like people being late.

Life is hard

If your life is hard, then you should look at Joseph and Job's life.

I'm currently having devotion on the Book of Job. I faced a lot of problems and stress recently, and now I felt kinda ashamed after reading them. I kinda admire them as they still can go on with their life after they lost everything but faith, hope and love.

人生本来就是满有苦难。 Life itself is full of misery. But the problem is how we face it.

There're two scriptures that really touched me, and taught me a lot.

"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives." Genesis 50:20

"In all this Job sinned not, nor charged God foolishly." Job 1:22

Hope that you'll also get something from it. =)

Compare?

Whose life is not hard? Whose life don't have any problem at all?

Everytime I go to church, I saw my friends, and I dare not voice out my problems. When compared to them, my problems aint problems. My immaturity, childishness, and selfishness caused all those. But to them, it's a different story.

Years ago, I've choosen this path, which I knew that it's not easy to live. I shouldn't be so selfish, if I am to continue life like that, I dare not face the judgement at all.

He gave me the power to influence, but He also gave me a character that is easily influenced. Still I shouldn't be so selfish, I need to concentrate not on my problems, but my mission.

Thank you for giving me a brain that can forget things easily, I wish to forget all those insignificant things in my life. This is the way to live perhaps.

September Life

I've decided no access to Facebook, Msn and Skype for two weeks. The reason I do this is because:
1. I don't wish to waste my time that much
2. I wish to learn to adapt and get updates without those helps
3. I want to prove that I can survive without them
4. I want to spend more time with people around me

Honestly, I also wish to avoid few things which can affect my emotion.

Through all these days, I feel like I don't know you anymore. You were like a stranger yet someone close to me. I'm not sure whether is you were the one who have changed or I'm the one who have changed. I want to know more about you yet not to.

I seriously want to go insane now, 28th Sept is Psychology midterm which cost 20% while 30th Sept is History midterm which cost 25%. 2nd Oct, Student Based Conference. Oh My Goodness!!!

FYI, I've applied 2 weeks + 1 day BB leave from 18th Sept onwards, but still I have some jobs to do. Even with my leave, I will never be free for these moment.

I've back to my workaholic life, partly still because I wish to avoid something.

Last night, I went to Kimberly Street for dinner after Badminton Club. It had been a long time that I never walk alone, and decide everything by myself. Somehow I feel comfortable, and I had a great time spending with myself. The stress are so nice, with people, stalls, fragrant, lights, and also me!

Life is like a game of chess, for every steps you've moved, it influences all the future steps. It's not about the matter of winning or losing, but how you went through the game, with minimal hurt to others.

坏蛋

Tomorrow is aholiday.

I stay up late.

我刚才很想去英迪的天台，结果就上去了，死鬼，有个保安人员在那边，然后我就乖乖的下去了。

首先，我不想回家。很想去Fun Fair, 但听说已经关了。=(

然后， 现在不想睡觉。

我很坏蛋！

星期三

今天，是非常长的一天。我很忙，也很盲。从我高中二就一直感觉我会盲，因为我。。。爽。

首先，我就照样平时去上课。就因为今天我们需要送国强礼物，给他一个生日的惊喜，结果借着这个理由来逃避一些东西。虽然整个过程并没有我们所想象的一样，但算了吧。

讲太多细节了。=( Okay, 进入正题。其实我今天的心情总是怪怪的，所以我就是要写。

今天跟韵芳yimo talk, 十分享受。有时候我们讲太多废话，的确能令人开心，但意义在哪里？阿芳无意中帮助了我更多地了解我自己，我也更深一步地认识了她。

过后，我们就有心理学调查研究的会议，这可能是最后几次了。我承认我的确没有作了什么，但我对这组有了一段感情。丁宏做的很好，他的委身及责任感是值得令我佩服的。其实我们的东西已经做到七七八八了，然后我们只是总结我们所做的一切，然后分享心得。我还要再说，丁宏，你实在太棒了。谢谢你，也谢谢所有的组员。

之后，我们五个没有赶时间的人，丁宏，曾紫欣，禄晶，惠淇和我，就留下来进行更多的分享与讨论。我们讲了很多，我也很认真地听，讲，想，演。哈哈。晚餐和午餐虽然贵了一点，但在那些时间的交谈是非常珍贵的。我们讲了很多很好笑的东西，也讲了一些人生经验，如色盲，死亡，兴趣，责任等。

也许今天我可能显得严肃了一些，但我只能说，这就是我。我今天很累，但也很开心。

逃避，是一种幸福。在百忙中，忘记了功课，忘记了考试，轻轻松松的交谈，幸福。

我所做的事情，有交待，但我并不需要让别人懂我向谁交待。

这就是我，简单，复杂，认真，幼稚。

This is me, I write it in chinese because I just want to write it in chinese. If you want to know/understand what I write, then I think you should know me first.

If it's tonight again

Seriously, I'm not ready. I was recalling what I've done today. To the world, they seems to be a lot; but to eternity, it's nothing.

I got a lot of friends, to be helped, to be saved. Yet, I wanted to do something, but I didn't. What about tomorrow? Last week, I decided to change my life, but this week I seem went back to my old life.

Can anyone hit me? Wake me up?

I seem to be a servant who did nothing, and I don't like it!

"Repent of your sins and turn to God, for the Kingdom of Heaven is near." Matthew 3:2

Death

Have you ever think of committing suicide? Have you ever think of dying?

To me, I never think of committing suicide, but I've thought of dying before.

Life on earth is hard, and my body is not that strong compared to others. When I'm falling on my bed, I wish that I do not need to wake up on the next day. I always wish to run away from responsibilities and problems around me, and go to the Lord, and wish that He says "'Well done, good and faithful servant. You were faithful with a few things, I will put you in charge of many things, enter into the joy of your master." (Matthew 25:21).

I thought I was ready, but NO! There're so many things yet to do, there's so many souls to be saved. I'm affraid if I went back tonight, what I will receive are not compliments, but heavy judgements. I'm a child of God, I'm His servant, I'm His beloved, I'm a Christian, I'm Methodist Youth, but am I living life that pleases Him?

There's so much more to learn, and I wish that He can give me strength to move on, and I can have a quiet moment in front of Him everyday.