The day before family trip

Everyone was surprised that I am able to go for the trip. Seriously speaking, I'm not.

I've declined appointments and pushed away my schedules in the very last minute, and now working overnight to have a stress-free trip, yet, no one sees it.

Today is a productive day. Serviced a car, went for Starbucks free cup while waiting, played with Jasper, played Bingo at Gaeik's house using her account, practiced piano and finally learned a song, cleaned my room, packed some stuff and passed on my Founder's questionnaire to someone else to take charge.

I enjoy being at home alone, really alone, with no one else bothers me and blocking my way. Sometimes I'm not sure who I am in this house. Sometimes I got kicked out of the keys tor those who underwent formal music education for their practice. The remote goes off my hand, have to go out of the way for someone to pass through. I guess hiding in my room is quite comfortable sometimes, or else people will exaggerate what I did.

I understand the hectic and tiredness after a whole week of work, yet......

Anyway, I'll complete my job before I sleep regardless of what tomorrow is.

Almost breakdown, thanks to tones and melodies for your accompaniment.

Sem 6

To those who accompanied me throughout my Sem 6 in Inti:

"很后悔在刚过的学期找你们看戏，玩耍，戏闹，吃饭等。这一些简直就在让我们对离别依依不舍。鸟会飞，人会走，鸟人又飞又走。原来大家都是鸟人！"

Regards,
Pattern King

网路，感情

因着科技的发展，也许很多感情也因此慢慢地发展，甚至开始。

更因为如此的开始，结束也很简单。网路太方便了，导致常常在网路上沟通都变成了理所当然。

这，也就是现在的时代吧。 =）

Overflowing blessing

God's blessing is abundant.

I'm not a perfect being. Compared to sinners, I'm more sinful than them; compared to saints, I'm holier than them. I don't have much, but God loves me.

God gave me two university options. Firstly, he gave me 22k of scholarship to a prestigious school with all the ideal education environment for me. Secondly, he gave me a good school also, and opened up a door for me to join their honors program in Fall 2012. I would only say that he is pampering me, and make me proud to decline either one of the offer which not much people will get.

Pray that I will continue to be taught to be humble and thankful than arrogant. =)

Diarrhea

My tummy is bloated... =(

I went to the clinic after the long day. Woke up at 7 something to go to the toilet, with mind thinking that it's normal and it'll be over after this. Who knows it tortures me for a day!

Anyway, I went to the doctor whom I used to see him a lot back in those days, and his business was getting worse. I used to line up to get into his clinic, but not anymore. Remembered that I used to get the privilege to jump queue, hahaha.

He check my tummy, and it hurts. He used his stereoscope to listen to my tummy, and funnily he said that there's still a lot of "pang sai jui" (literal translation: shit water). Haha.

That's not all, the highlight of the day was he spotted me in the newspaper months ago! Haha. He teased me for my mild food poisoning due to have too much of mee goreng. Hehe

Okay, I need to restore my energy to get all the "shit water" out later. Chaos =)

ICTL 2011

Joined International Teaching and Learning Conference 2011 (ICTL 2011) organized by Inti Education Group as a result of luckiness to get involved in a paper with my lecturers.

Met lots of great people, and also a very small number of arrogant people. Ahem... I guess he is la, from the way he talk and stuff. Okay, there's only one! Anyway, lots of pretty girls there, but they are years older than me. Met a lecturer from IICP who looks like Charmaine Sheh, just a bit smaller in size. Hehe.

I still can't get rid of a coordinator's face until now. She's Ms Liew. I don't know why but find her quite attractive. I guess she's not young anymore.

Yeap, met a very cute guy, Mr Robert Ng. He's enthusiastic, funny and old. I guess he's funny because he's old. Haha

Senior Lecturer from Inti University

He shared with us on student-centered teaching, and also reminded a lot of us about the fundamental of education.

Next up, Dato' Dr. Ibrahim Ahmad Bajunid, Deputy Vice Chancellor of Inti International University. I get to know more about his legacy from Dr. William Wong. He's super great, and all the educationist should know him! Didn't know that he is a friend of Tun. Dr. Mahathir and helped him a lot in education and finance. He gave a keynote address which was very strong, but I've missed it. Never mind, at least I got his paper! Yay!

What a brilliant guy! He asked a question to the panel who are discussing on the topic of assessment, "How do you evaluate and assess in the area of extra-curricular activities?" Awesomeness!

Following by, Mr Edmund Tan! The holistic guy. Was with him at almost all meals, and he was a little bit over-talking. Perhaps, he's very passionate about what he is preaching. Thanks for guiding and sharing, got lots of idea and philosophies from you a lot.

Continue wit Dr. John Langrehr, a crazy guy from Australia. He is the Australian Education Consultant, and also the founder of John Langrehr Thinking Program who advocates a lot on creative thinking. He just publish his resources publicly and lots of people stole it. And the shocking part is that he doesn't mind about it, even when they publish it without acknowledgement. One day, a publisher came to him and helped him to get back his "stuff". Cool guy!

Mr Cool

Along side, I've met with Dr Michael and Dr Milondo from South Africa! They are super passionate and humanistic. As the African students have no idea about economics, Michael designed lots of games just to gain interest and teach his students! Crazy man! 

Talked to Mr. Ooi KK a lot, and he's seriously a joker. I'm kinda admire his family relationship, especially how his wife admires him. She supported him and laugh hardly at the lame jokes he made. Aww...

Last but not least, Dr. William Wong. CE of Inti College Sarawak, ex-Academic Dean of IICP, and he's coming back to IICP again!

A very dedicated educationist who work tirelessly for students and also Inti. Well, he's almost holistic, except for his physical health. The first time I met him was in Inti Student Based Conference 2010 (ISBC) while he's giving his keynote. I don't bother him much during that time. Until Dr. Kimura told me that he's the guy who employed her and inspired her, I walked to him this year outside the library and talked to him. Humble indeed, I mean him. He's very inspiring! We had lots of talks together, and I'll just call it synergy! He even lend me his Doctorate Thesis! Cute guy! I guess he is someone whom all Inti students must know!

I think I'll call it an end. =D Join ICTL 2013 in Sabah yea, prepare your papers now!

大桥跑

跑大桥是一种兴奋。开始时，大家都很努力地在跑，脚步声自然地就形成一种说不出来的节奏感，推动着大家前进。

说会努力地跑，大家也只不过是再度的竞争，就想当年在子宫里，不过这一次不是为了生命，而是成就。

在运动的场合上，是男生的都会非常地兴奋。为了运动的方便，女孩们都自然的绑起了马尾，这就是运动的乐趣。但一旦发现前后有别时，希望就会渐渐地消灭。美的有很多，但已被占据的更多。悲哀...

总结来说，我很开心，因为达到了目标，同时也获得了非常多的视线上的花红。^^

Facebook Challenge

Starting from 19 November 2011, I will stop Facebook for a week.

The first two days was easy, as I was quite busy. But on the 3rd day, due to the end of my classes in Inti, I have nothing to do but stay at home. Watched movie, finished a novel, walking here and there, so on. Until it came to blogging, I need photos! Without Facebook, I can get photos with my face only from my camera. Sad case is that I've not taking much photos in this year!

Day 3 without Facebook, I regain my photography passion and have lots of time to kill. I've read a lot of articles and all are beneficence. =) Besides, I carve for Face to Face human interaction also, but sadly, I couldn't really found one to go out in mainland. =(

Day 4 & 5, thanks to Jiong Da, I signed in to reply his message. Hahaha... At the same time, I found that I've long neglected Online Messenger like MSN, Yahoo and Skype due to Facebook. I used to hate Facebook chat, until they really improved to the point of irresistible. Haha, kudos Facebook. Thanks to this FB challenge also, I quit abandoning my blog, at least for now. Haha.

Day 6 and 7 was easy, as I'm down with diarrhea and I was so sick to open the computer. Yay!

Week without Facebook is cool. Should do it more! Sadly, I'm rapidly getting back to the addiction again, but improved at least.

沈佳仪

看完了＜那些年，我们一起追女孩＞的电影，加上正阅读九把刀的小说，还真怀念，不禁想起了当年的青春。

是，我心中还有沈佳仪。幼稚，也就是她当年常挂在嘴边的话。坐在我前面，常常转身来说话。也许那时我还没喜欢她，直到我错过了机会。追女孩的念头都不在我中学里，但喜欢却有另一番的解释。也许用功读书是我的策略吧。

还记得毕业后有尝试的追她，但因为怕破坏友谊就没没告白，但还是尽力的保持好朋友的距离。

还记得同班时，她既给了我一个提示，但我忘了，直到今天。 也不知道为什么当初会打了＂miss ya " 的简讯给她。而出乎预料的是她竟然回复我＂if miss me then continue to SMS la＂。也许这是她的调皮吧，而这点深深地把我吸住了。

她十分调皮，十分创意。很多时候我很不明白为什么那么甘愿的被她欺负，陪着她累坏身体。也许也只有5年，但这5年已足够让我回味了。谢谢妳进入我的生命。

也许我正体会着九把刀的那思念及痴情；5年就这样变成了习惯。

如今，我也只能把它作为过去，深深的祝福你，一定要幸福，一定不可被欺负。如果没有人给你欺负，我愿意。永远幸福快乐 =）

朋友与战友

有的时候，我都不懂谁是朋友，谁是战友。虽然我都很希望大家是朋友，但那只是理想而已。战友们，让我们一起做朋友吧，大战不好玩。哈哈

Fast pace of life

Things happen fast. I guess I'm clearer with my direction right now, but still with some questions in mind. It's a long time since get a good time and shaved

Creation and heartache

³⁴And Simeon blessed them and said to Mary his mother, "Behold, this child is appointed^(BF) for the fall and rising of many in Israel, and for a sign^(BG)that is opposed ³⁵(and a sword will pierce through your own soul also), so that thoughts from many hearts may be revealed." Luke 2:34-35

Recently, I've started a student movement, and the project is a board! People can post their thoughts, discuss on any issues, post comments and also Like the post. Everything will operate as a Facebook, it's just that it's an offline mode. The aim of the board is to create awareness and promote thinking. At the same time, it's suppose to guide the thinking of the youth in a correct way. Yes, the word correct seems controversial, however, me as a leader together with my adviser have one mission in mind, that is moving people to the right-evangelism.

Yesterday was the first day of launching, and I was so sad about it. Yes, the response is overwhelming, but they are just all crap. The beautiful board seem to be corrupted by the rubbish, my heart sank. I just wanted to shout to all the crappers, "Hey, I'm the Creator of the board, I give you the freedom to voice out, but why are you corrupting it? Isn't that you should be responsible and love the board?" I almost feel like destroying the board, seriously. God is almighty and he is sovereign, he too can destroy the world, yet he love us.

God showed me the scripture above, and it comforts me a lot. Virgin Mary and Joseph is so strong, they've knew the truth that they will hurt deeply, yet they still move on. Thanks Mr Edmund (my adviser) for encouraging me and give me a clear picture. I guess I know what to do now, and the thing I lack is love.

Pray that I'll become more like Jesus, with a fatherly heart, and teaches the children patiently.

Calling

I just feel that I need to talk to him. There're a lot of question I wish to ask, there is something bothering me.

Because of all that, I go into his office and we had a MAN talk. I realize a lot of things from him, and also I thank God that he humbled and opened up himself to me.

He shared lots of its testimony, and seriously, it's somewhat demotivating, but it's truth. Through his testimony again, I found someone who are kinda in line with me, except for that he's a lot stronger and patient.

But the very last thing he wants me to think is that, "What's my calling?"

I'm still wondering a lot, and I'm. It sure whether it's my inner desire that make me doubt or it's really holy spirit that do the job... Hopefully prayers don't take a long time to be fulfilled again =)

E.T

24 hour difference

And she went online just now, for the first time I saw.

She said "Hey", and I was so shock. I quickly replied her, and my tears just rushed out, they're like standing by to roll out whenever the chance is. Sadly, the chat was short, but I thank God for that. I was spiritually down seriously, things are so messy, life is like a war, jobs everywhere. I experienced His really great love, by giving me her.

Hopefully I'll be alright soon, and not busy =)

Education and Parents

I used to ignorantly blame the parents of this generation of their blindness in money making. I cannot agree with that they placed more emphasis on monetary than family time. Money can't buy everything, this is what we all know.

However, money still can buy something. After doing a little research of the education in Malaysia, I'm amazed at the pioneers who fought for the quality education in this land. Sadly, the racial quota issue is never solved, in fact getting worse.

I can agree with the use of racial quota, but not that high quota though. In using the racial quota, I hope to see some fairness in it, but not abusing the use of quota. Parents of today earn hard money all for the education of their children. Now I understand this.

Anyhow, I still couldn't agree with that they wish to give us a quality education overseas and never come back to our mother land. Haha, perhaps I'm more rebellious. Anyway, I'll go overseas and come back to my mother land and fight for my rights one day. =)

La Wei

我们不说干杯，我们说La Pi La!

不再La Wei

=)

New experience in the New world

After years and all the participations and experiences in Christian ministries, we tend to pray before the event/meeting and close with a prayer before dismissal.

Today, I am finally involved in quite a lot of meetings with non-Christians, or in the other way, as the only Christian. I feel awkward. "Huh, start edi ar?" "Huh, ended edi ar?" It was like so weird...

Perhaps, my life in high school was a good one. =)

Combo

Statistics Quiz, Sociology presentation, MPW test, all happen within 24 hours... Hectic!

Glad that they are over, and thank God for it. =)

Being sociologist

Seeing the similar in the differences, seeing the general in the particular, seeing the familiar in the strange. Structural functional approach, social-conflict approach and symbolic interaction approach, we need all these 3, and they work together as one. This is what we need to be when we view our surroundings in our daily life. =)

CF Meeting Conclusion

"There is no what IF, but there's only Adam!"

The Missional church

He's not the one who we are looking for...

I said to someone, "Eh, this guy is not bad... =)"

Replied, "Yeah, but he's not the one AUPEC is looking for."

I wish to reply, "Yeah, AUPEC is looking for corrupted people."

2 Weeks

Again, I got myself in NTS again, and also the 5 subjects.

2 weeks, or I go mad.

List of things to do:

SOC 103 Assignment

SOC 103 Test

STA 219 Test

PSY 260 Test

PSY 260 Assignment

MPW Test

MPW Assignment

STA Survey LAB

Call for Video Meeting

Officer's Council Meeting

Finish NTS notes and prepare teaching materials

Last but never least, study God's word, commit everything in His hands and always have a time with Him.

I hope everyone can give me a time off to do my very things, and do pray for me. =)

deviated dreams

I have a dream, which is to live poor. Specifically, I wish to wish poor to help the poor.

It would be a foolish decision to plan to spend a lot of money for tertiary education oversees, and come back to the land of (N)ever changing future to work.

During my sociology class today, I heard about deviance. Dr. K noted that a lot of the deviance have not much choice to live the conventional life, as they were limited by their opportunity and so on. Soon, I became to dream a wonderful dream. (I dream a lot lately, as I'm very tired and my logical side of mind is so tired to control my imaginative side of brain to go out of control)

I have a plan, to provide a very low cost and good quality tertiary education to the youth from broken families, poor families, problematic families and so on. First, I will find a bunch of crazy graduates like me who are willing to help them and serve them humbly even without any income for the first few months/years. Secondly, I would go to the government, private sectors and so on to demand for financial aids. Of course, we might want the students to work or involve up to a certain amount of community services/activities to study with scholarships. As I am/was a BB member, I would use the concept of drill(discipline) and love(christianity) as one of the foundation of my institution.

There're still a lot of work to do, but I'm not sure whether my parents or my friends around me would support me for this idea.

Perhaps, I'm deviance.

Week 7

This is the mid semester, and there're a lot of tests and assignments.

@.@.......

Everyday is just like a war =(

Confused about words

As we grow older, suddenly we are confused with few words:

All - "Bring all the chairs out!" .... (A moment later) "Get 4 chairs back inside!"

A while - "Keep the clothes a while later!" (A moment later) "Why are you not keeping the clothes?"

And the list goes on...

CNY Dream

I don't want to study anymore. But to administrate my family affairs and learn all the recipes. =)

All the foods are so awesome, and the family history would never finish discovering.

I want to be the best chef in town, as I ate the best food. =)

CNY =')

Happy CNY?

Well, it is. But today, 初一, the very first day of CNY, my tears almost roll down on my cheek. I visit my grandpa at my uncle's house. We didn't see him at first, as he's resting on the first floor.

He's so weak, and my heart breaks. Ache on the waist, don't have much energy to move around, and seems to be so dizzy and blur all the time, it's indeed a special CNY for him.

Dear my ah gong,

I know we (your grandchildren) teased your big tummy a lot, but we still love you. We inherit partly of your big tummy, big and interesting nose, and hidden double eye lid. Thank you for your gene. =)

Happy CNY, and we hope to spend more CNY in the coming years with your presence.

Your grandson,

Ah Hern

City of Walls, Tales and Secrets

Secrets, walls, and tales......

Perhaps, I'm an Dai Li after all.

Inti is a small building, perhaps it's not small at all.

January Miscellaneous

I stayed in Penang on weekdays at my cousin's house. It's just less than two weeks, but a lot of things had happened. Cockroaches, water, laundry, dinner, sleeping in the living room. Hahaha

Resolved a lot of conflicts, especially with the one. Haha, we didn't know that there's still a strong affection between us. Haha

Family. Started to be more family conscious since the Chiang Mai trip. We seems to get closer together more, and quite focused on a particular issue. >.<>

Chinese New Year. It's around the corner! It's not as simple as it will be anymore. Not for me, but my friends around me. Family is vital for CNY, without it, there seems to be no CNY.

A lot of things to do for BB! Why nobody reply my mail? Ish... Haha. But the young leaders seems to have a very good progression edi.

So on, so on, so on, so on......

Driving on the highway

While I was driving on the highway in Seberang Jaya heading to Chung Ling Bw, I felt so nice. This is where I belong and where I grow up.

Butterworth, I love you =)

Wake up testimony

It was a lazy Sunday which I threw up my studies, and set the alarm clock at 10am for the next morning.

I slept early(I think), and I woke up at 8 something in the morning. Without feeling normal, I thought, "eh, what time is the class?".

Without thinking much, I jumped out of my bed and check the timetable. Rushing like a bee, I manage to go to 10am class on time. =)

It might be normal, or you name it coincidence, but I call it a testimony. A testimony which the Father wakes his child up to be on time.

The Aunty Club

Was suppose to meet her up, but she's no in. So ended up joining the Aunty Club.

There were a few aunties, but sounded like there were many. I was invited to the table to have lunch, and the conversation will never ends.

It's kinda funny to listen to those aunties to talk, brag, and express themselves. They are so cute I would say. Everyone was trying to talk, and soon it forms a network of conversation, which one overlapping another at the same time. It's somehow amazing to witness how it works, but now I believe something I call complex social network without computer.

Aunty Club, they gather quite frequent, and they share a lot of knowledge that an Aunty should have. Interested to become an Aunty? Join Aunty Club today!

2 Years Old

I saw her last evening. Her eyes are still so big, and still she's my bao bei.

I remember the moment I spent with her. She barely even say a word that time, except for mum mum. She crawled to me when she saw me, sitting on my lap while I was using computer, opened up her mouth when I fed her, and so on.

That was just 5 weeks.

A year plus had passed, and now I see her. With a nicer hair, being able to walk, talk and sing, and even became naughtier, there she is.

Aunty GHong asked her to choose me and Je, she turned her head again and again to look at us, then roll up her eyes and do her cheeky think. Aww, so adorable.

This is me and my bao bei in 2009, hope that I can get the recent photo from her mum. =)

His Word is a command

"When we read the Scriptures, what Jesus said was never a suggestions, it may be said with a soft spoken tones or with a very kind expressions but none of His Word was just a mere words-His Word is a command speak in a language of love." - Richard

Taken from:
http://www.motivates4life.com/2011/01/they-are-asking-you-now-can-you-forgive.html

Not telling my stories

Sometimes I choose not to tell my stories to everyone because I'm getting enough discouragement.

Living in a culture that desire for love and caring from others but didn't play their part by giving, I am enough of all these. People laugh at your dreams, your flaws in your speech. Don't you remember who God sent? He sent Moses! Laugh at God then.

Knowing so much about Bible sometimes, but live not like the person who know lesser about the Bible but live out the life that brings God pleasure. Teasing, humiliating, saying BO JIO, yeah...

I share not my stories but my knowledge because I know that I will be discouraged, and they care not my life, but my intelligence that will benifit them. Why share?

I am playing my part in listening and caring to people, lesser teasing(trying to get rid of still), and all that I wanted to say is that it's not easy. But I'll still doing it because I see changes. Let them see what Christian is like, not like the people whose home is on Earth.

I've played my part, will you?

Breathing

Sometimes to breathe is a gift, appreciate it while you can.

I wrote this statuses not only to let others to like, haha, but the true reason is to share what I've experienced and what I've discovered. Yeah, so what's about breathing?

I would just explain it with few words, "The Confession of an Asthmatic Patient". What I would share with you all is that an asthmatic patient doesn't breath normally. It may be normal for now, but not for the next second sometimes. So, to breathe normally is a blessing to us. =)

A conversation

It had been a long time I didn't post any thing here.

I went to college today to check whether what's the courses I need, and it's great that Dr. Kimura came to me and check out what am I doing. And then we started to have quite a lot of conversation going on. I don't know why, but I kinda have a very good relationship with all my lecturers, and Dr. K is one of the most friendly lecturer I have, maybe both of us like Psychology. Haha

After quite a long conversation, Tze Chuen, a senior who went to States for a semester came in and join the conversation. He's a bright student, and I know him, but not very well. He shared quite a lot about the states and on and on. They were interesting, but I am kinda terrified by his expression and accent. It was just a sem, and he can already adapt their accent, and their way of speaking of course. Not to say bad, but weird yet scary to me. His eyes were kinda didn't move, and he can just talk talk talk without any facial expression. It's kinda brain wash and programmed by the Americans. It's scary. I know that I didn't know him well, but at least I know that he was not that kind of people. He can speak Asianly, with expressions and all and all.

That's all I want to share, as it's kinda bothering me.