Old man, not!

Let me start a post with a question someone asked me, or you call it sarcasm.

"Eh, why your specs is senget one??? I see liao beh syok!"
Then I replied, "Senget specs and messy hair is my style..." =) >.<'"
Since I was in Form 2, people start calling me old man. Not funny...

I got no sense of fashion, I just know what is call tidy. ;) I don't care about my outlook, I don't care much about my hair, and I wear specs so that I can see.

I can't admit the statement, but I won't accept it though. I dislike young people call themselves old, and refuse to do this and that, so I won't allow myself to be like that. In year 2010, I changed a lot, everything changed, I even don't know myself now. Seriously, I lost my confidence in my leadership(or I don't have leadership at all in the first place), and I lost my impulse. I can't say that I lost my enthusiasm and passion, my heart is burning, but I just don't have the energy to move. WHY???

Let me tell you something, if you know this guy, you'll know how aggressive is him, yet he is passive. This guy is somehow lost, I never met this guy since somewhere in '09.

I never went through any formal music education before, but putting my fingers on the strings, chanter, or keys are my hobbies. I have a habit, that is dislike to play any musical instrument infront of anyone. Yeap, anyone. I don't know a lot of songs and the artist, as I don't listen a lot to those songs you listen. I prefer Christian Songs, and I play those songs. I only can play those songs when everybody either is asleep or not at home, as it gives me a perfect silence, and zero-pressure. =) But still I'm not good at playing them.

Just now when I was playing 主，恳求你, I remember there was a time, where my god-grandmother was a sick and sleep on the floor(to prevent from fall down from the bed), then everyone was not around, I played the song. She stood up and walk to somewhere and got back to the bed again. She has been lying at there for a very long time, but I call this a miracle.
"主懇求你醫治我，保守我，我終日等候仰望你。"-the last part of chorus, which pleaded God to heal us. =)

I still can write a lot actually, but I don't think anyone is willing to read. Everything on my table, anything around me, triggers my memory. Sometimes I can be lost in a conversation, I can be lost when I study, or I can be lost when I look at something, but don't be shock, because I'm just thinking of my past.

Past seems to be something that is only important to old people, but I don't think so. Young people needs to look back too, to learn something they didn't learn or realise last time, and to remind your own mistakes again, so that you don't repeat them.

I'm currently facing a lot of task, homework and revisions. I don't handle pressure well, I express it in a special(or so called stupid/crazy) way. I just wish to run away from all these. But thanks God for He taught me to live a focused life. =) So, I might look like an old man physically for these few weeks. =(


In conclusion, I'm not old! As old people don't do this:

Haha, so don't call me old man again k? ^^