Year 2010

Year 2010 is a very different year to me.

1st, I finally detached from schooling... So the next step will be working and stepping into college life. 2010 was a bad start to me.

A lot of problems and tireness from 2009 had dragged into 2010, and there're still a challenge to me. I'm stressed, I'm weak, but I'm glad that I am relying on God. Sometimes I just can't accept improper way of communication(I call it violence), which included scoldings, raising your voice, and rudeness. They might not do it to me, but I still can't accept it. As a Christian, we are using our mouth to praise the God, but why we use the same mouth to do the exact opposite things?

1 Corinthians 6:12, "Everything is permissible for me"—but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible for me"—but I will not be mastered by anything.

James 3:5-6, Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

Joshua asked me that do I ever thought of suicide? I answered never. But for once I thought, although I never thought of that, I did thought about being blind, deaf, or mute. It's like living in a world of you and your God, and it's like away from the world. But why I'm not? Because I have things to learn. It's so hard... I'll became insane, I'll have stress related disease, I'll have phycological illness, it's too hard for me.

Why can't a person speak properly? Don't they have love in their heart?
1 Corinthians 13:3-5, If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Maybe this two post from James Lau will help you to understand more about love.
http://www.jameslau88.com/love_is_patient.html
http://www.jameslau88.com/what_is_not_love.html

Love is patient, love is not rude!