Presidency

I'm a serious guy... LOL, it's a statement which the AUPians don't believe. Again I say, I was and I am a serious guy.

During my 4 years in CLBU01 EXCO, I was really a serious guy. During my 2 years of presidency, I became even more serious. When I eat, I think of BB; When I sleep, I think of BB; When I study, I think of BB; Even when I shit, I think of BB.

I was an information guy, every info is in my mind, I'm the answer of all questions. After 4 years, I finally pass it down to a better person, and supported him whenever he needs. It was a relieve after letting everything go, and it was the time for me to SIAO!

For 10 months of SIAOing, Lin Peh to Ah Jin, it's quite hard to go back to the life before.

During the 10 months seems to be the best life I had. Life is so free, I do whatever I want, do what I love, without a clear responsibility. I conducted drill classes, helped to train drill squads, and motivated them during the competition. It's so fun, this is what I love. I hanged out with my friends whenever I want, go for bowling, cendol, hiking and do all those SIAO stuff. I love my life.

Although things should be changed by now but still it haven't change, I started to feel the momentum returning back.

For the one who loves me and die for the cross for me, I love you. But is it your call to ask me to return to there?

Awareness

In 2004, I started to have religious awareness.

In 2008, I started to have political awareness.

In 2010, I started to have relationship awareness.

Sometimes when you don't know something is better than you know.

Somtimes it's so hard to be a boy. Because girls always do this to you...


Sometimes it's so hard to tell the truth...


Because of them, we do crazy things...


Boys need their own privacy also, we don't tell the truth, but it doesn't mean we lie...


After getting my license and having a car, it's my duty to drive my friends around...

Now, I got to say ENOUGH!!!

Boys aren't stupid! Don't throw things at us...

When you are trying to throw things to us, please look at the mirror! All men are created equal!

So, if we are stupid, so do you!


HEHE, revenged......

By the way, after writing this post, I do think boys are stupid.

Girls throw things at us, and run over us, BUT we still like/love them.... >.<'"

p/s: Dear God, is she the one? >.<"'

Ah Jinship

Hoho, finally promoted to Ah Jin. On the same day, there're a lot of people adding me in facebook and congratulated me. But there're only a very few who really understand me. Thank God for giving me those friends.

Seriously, I just know what a Lin Peh should do, but not an Ah Jin. The story from Lin Peh to Ah Jin one is quite long, only Ah Ang and me know what's happening... Shh... It's a secret... Sorry ya, cannot tell. :p

When you become an Ah Jin, you will actually become something like beauty pageant. Because you will wear something like this.Besides, you know the red sash is so 'chat bak' when you wear on your uniform, this is what the Ang Mo call public figure. You know la, in everywhere of the world, people love to assasinate the public figure one... So dangerous! You SEE!


Ok la, skip those nonsense. You know me, I'm serious. I see things different from others. I'm actually quite confused when I march towards Colonel Tan, Honary Captain of 03BTW. What I feel? Stress!

So, what's my first feeling towards the sash? When Colonel Tan wore it on me, then I said to myself, "Wah, so heavy one ar?" >.<"' It's not only heavy in weight, but also responsibility. "The greater the power, the greater the responsibility."


I don't really feel well for 3 days, the AUPians called me emo. Thank Lord for giving me those friends, they actually tried to cheer me up, and give me moral support although they don't know what's happening.

I told God a lot of times, Thy will be done, I'm here, send me Lord. But why I can't accept it then? Yes, it's not easy for now, I do mean it's not easy at all! Since 2007, all the NCOs and me were called to the front to re-enrol ourself, let us think seriously what are we here for.


When I see this photo, I remember the bridge of the song "He Ne Ni". Hello, this is in Hebrew, not in Hokkien, which means "I'm Here, Send me Lord". Hehe, I'm Lin Peh doesn't mean that I only know Hokkien one...

直到我在敬拜中獻上自己為祭 無怨無悔 永不回頭
直到我在祭壇那裡得著命定 無怨無悔 我在這裡
為這世界黑暗的角落 我在這裡
為那不曾被安慰的靈魂 我在這裡

Again I thank God for giving me another friend, who actually comforted me a lot with scriptures and her experience. She told me that she was actually scolded by her mom because she used to worry a lot last time. "Sometimes you just got to relax and let things go, even it may seem like it will be a total disaster but, let it be.... what's done is done." What a nice quote :)

Now that I'm here, what's done is done. Perhaps, this is a challenge of faith for me. I shall stand up, in the name of Jesus, do what I should, spread the love and bring the salvation to those who need it!

Er, how about the new team?

Ultraman somemore.... >.<"' Hope that he meant Christ la, not ultraman...

p/s: Ah Jin is derived from the word 挲榛， which means Sergeant... The cantonese word might be incorrect, but I syok! Especially the word 榛. Hehe...

Why sometimes you can't achieve your dream but you achieved others' instead?

我很美麗

Out of sudden, I feel so stress today. It's okay for you who don't know what's happening, because I also don't know. But this song, touches me a lot. My situation is the same as the lyrics... Now, I wanted to say, I love you, Jesus!

我感覺很孤獨 曾經以為很滿足
沒想到什麼都抓不到

對著自己流眼淚 沈重步伐心疲憊
再努力卻還是不對

為什麼 心揪在一起
我不想再哭泣 把我的手交給你
再微笑 是因為我有你


我很美麗 因為有你我更愛我自己
一個深情擁抱 溫柔的微笑
可以讓我自由飛翔

我很美麗 你的愛讓我認識我自己
沒有懼怕 沒有孤單
You’re be there for me With Me

Translation by me: :p
I feel so lonely, and I thought that I was satisfied
But I can't really catch anything at all

I cried to myself, my steps are heavy, my heart is tired
No matter how much effort I put it seems useless

I asked why, my heart clutches together
I don't feel like crying anymore, abd I wanted to lift up my hands to You,
and smile, because all I have is you

I'm beautiful, because of You, I love myself more,
A loving hug, and a gentle smile,
makes me soar freely again

I'm beautiful, because of your love, I know more about myself,
There's no fear, and there's no loneliness,
You're be there for me, With me

BEAUTIFUL CHRISTIAN SISTER

By Maya Angelo

'A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man should have to seek Him first to find her.'

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not shouting, "I've been saved!"
I'm whispering, "I get lost! That's why I chose this way"

When I say, "I am a Christian," I don't speak with human pride
I'm confessing that I stumble-needing God to be my guide

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not trying to be strong
I'm professing that I'm weak and pray for strength to carry on

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not bragging of success
I'm admitting that I've failed and cannot ever pay the debt

When I say, "I am a Christian," I don't think I know it all
I submit to my confusion asking humbly to be taught

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not claiming to be perfect
My flaws are far too visible but God believes I'm worth it

When I say, "I am a Christian," I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartache which is why I seek His name

When I say, "I am a Christian," I do not wish to judge
I have no authority--I only know I'm loved

Honesty

What do you think about me? Am I honest? Nevermind, it's not important though...

I don't know how honest I am to others, but one thing for sure, I never honest to myself.

I tend to hide my feelings, try not to think about my sorrow. I don't know what I want, and I really wanted to know what I actually want.

All For Love-Hillsong United
All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

The Hall of Fame

Since the moment I joined BB, I wanted badly to be in the hall of fame and make new records. Till now, I still want it badly. But, making new records is just going to make me a Legend on earth. Few years later, it's worthless.

There are a lot of competition on and off. Winning the competition is nothing without winning the soul. I rather lose in the competition but let the BB captain win the comrades soul. But I prefer both. :)

I hope this will make me very clear of my purpose statement whenever I'm with them. May God bless me.